I didn’t feel super great yesterday. I ran on the treadmill, I meditated, I worked… but still I felt off all day. Hopefully today will be a bit better. I plan on going swimming and seeing my counselor. Maybe it was all the pie I ate this weekend… maybe that has got me feeling so … Continue reading Feeling Down
Category: Depression
Trauma Counseling And A Pool Closure
About a month ago my trauma counselor told me that she is moving into private practice. And for the last few weeks I didn’t know if I would be able to continue to see her. Yesterday I found out that I will. It is still not clear how we will work it all out, (there … Continue reading Trauma Counseling And A Pool Closure
Running Alone
I went for a run yesterday. I was all alone at home on my treadmill listening to a good book on Audible. I felt wonderful. Today is a day to stay home, stay inside, read and maybe even nap. I am having a thin-skinned kind of day. Maybe it is that I am just not … Continue reading Running Alone
9/1/19 Swimming with Depression
Something strange and unexpected happened yesterday. Swimming didn’t make me feel good. It didn’t make me feel any better at all. In the morning I dropped the boys off at their dad’s, then I went and got my oil changed, I went through a car wash, and then as reward I went to my favorite … Continue reading 9/1/19 Swimming with Depression
Unmanageable
Living with depression and anxiety can be… unpredictable. One day you feel the ground underneath you as flat and stable. Your daily tasks, while not always pleasant, are at least manageable. You end the day with a feeling of accomplishment and a modicum sense of control over your life and how you spend your time. … Continue reading Unmanageable
When I Just Can’t Leave
I was still shaky yesterday. I started to leave the house a few times to go for a jog. Each time I ended up on the ground crying. That is life with anxiety attacks. There was nothing wrong, nothing different from all the other days that I walked out of the door without any problem, … Continue reading When I Just Can’t Leave
7/18/19
I had a bad day yesterday. I had lots of violent dreams the night before. I didn’t work out.
