Today is my second day in bed. I get up for important things, like going to the kid’s swim practice, eating, going for a walk on my treadmill, spending time with my partner and kids, doing the dishes, taking a shower, picking the kids up from school. I am not so bad off that I … Continue reading Safe Space
It hit me like a kick to the chest. Suddenly it was hard to breath. My vision tunneled. My heart felt like someone was standing on it. I cried for an hour. Now I just feel cold and numb. And the worst part is, I don't want to try and figure it out. I don't … Continue reading Out of Nowhere
I was able to get up and work out again, early. I have had my nose stuck in a book during any free time. But I still feel a bit twitchy. I am stuck in a strange place. I am not sure if I am moving or standing still. Its like I am on a … Continue reading Perspective
I did something on Friday I have never done before. I took a yoga class. Every single part of me didn’t want to go. But I used all the tools I could think of to get through it. I meditated for a half an hour before I left the house. I took deep slow breaths. … Continue reading Beginner’s Anxiety
I had a very hard day yesterday. It was so hard, in fact, I am still feeling the effects. I am reeling. I am off balance. I am emotionally hungover. I am not myself. I am not up to it, whatever it may be. And so I am withdrawing... Temporarily. I will be back tomorrow.
So first off let me say that I had a productive day and I spent no time at all zoning out on TV. For anyone who read my previous post they can understand what that means to me. The test has been administered and the results are in; I just needed a day off and … Continue reading A Long Wait with a Big Reward
I don’t know what happened yesterday. I didn’t go to bed early the night before so I didn’t get up early to workout. When I finally did get up, I was nervous; sick and shaky, there’s a killer around the corner, nervous. I thought about what I had to do that day. I had to … Continue reading Am I Resting or Just Being Lazy?