What a busy Saturday. There is nothing left inside me. And it hurts.
Book Recommendation: HEX
HEX by Thomas Olde Heuvelt This was an amazing book. I wanted to start it all over again the instant I read the last sentence. It is about a town, Black Springs, which lives under a curse. Whoever lives there, whether they move or are born there, they can never move away. Anyone who tries … Continue reading Book Recommendation: HEX
As Darkness Falls
I had a lot to do today. In between tasks I curled up under the blankets and cried until I fell asleep. It made me feel better. Now it is the end of the day. All I have left are kid related activities. Things like bedtime, showers, homework, and reading. Their small smiles and rambling … Continue reading As Darkness Falls
I’m Not Ok and That’s Ok
Another day done. I did there bare minimum. I didn't do anymore than that and I didn't get mad about it. There were plenty of moments when I thought of all the things I would like to do. I want to put up more Christmas decorations around the house, I want to put lights up … Continue reading I’m Not Ok and That’s Ok
Waiting
I had another bad day today. After this weekend full of lights and sounds and people... I need some time to recover. Although I don't think I would feel much better even if I had spent the weekend at home alone. That's just where I'm at right now. Still waiting to hear from back from … Continue reading Waiting
Bad Dreams
Last night I had a nightmare about the ex who used to stalk me. After my marriage fell apart I dated this guy for a while. He was a really nice guy and he seemed to think the world of me. But then things started to get a little weird. I put up boundaries and … Continue reading Bad Dreams
And Now the Wrapping
I spent my entire day wrapping presents and now I am completely wiped out. I feel like I have been run over by a truck. Maybe part of that is due to all the human interaction I experienced yesterday. But hey, I didn't spend the day in bed! Either today or yesterday. So there is … Continue reading And Now the Wrapping
Christmas Shopping
So. Many. People. I survived. We have a tree. We have new electronics. We have toys and cards and wrapping paper and more toys and batteries and... crap, I forgot tape. It is late Saturday night as I write this. I only just realized I hadn't written a post yet today. So here is my … Continue reading Christmas Shopping
Harnessing the Darkness Within
I went to the doctor today. I was given a referral to a psychiatrist. I should hear from them in seven to ten business days. There, I did the thing. Now I am back in bed. I will leave you with a quote. One that gives me hope that something good might still come from … Continue reading Harnessing the Darkness Within
Hope on the Horizon
This was another day I spent mostly in bed. However, now I have an appointment with my doctor. I am actually hopeful. More hopeful than I have been in a long while. Just the thought there might be a way out of this cycle, this nightmare, this crippling void, makes me feel better. I feel … Continue reading Hope on the Horizon
Rey Wright 