I have a well of secret happy thoughts. Thoughts that make my heart light and the days go by in a pink fluffy haze and wrap me in warm fuzzy feelings. I think these secret thoughts and I smile a secret smile. Yet, I am not sure what, if anything, I should do with them. … Continue reading Secret Thoughts, Secret Smiles
Its my birthday today. Its been a while since I mustered up the courage to write one of these. This idea has been banging around my head for a while though and I think I finally cracked it open. I have been plotting all these year-long goals to give myself yet feeling very much not … Continue reading Happy Birthday To Me
If anyone was counting, or paying attention, I know I said I would start posting daily, and I have not. I realize this. I am writing this to let you know that my lack of posting doesn’t mean I am not working on a post. It is just that I am putting in more effort … Continue reading Just gimme a minute.
So far I have written two different versions of this blog post. In one I am optimistic. I explain what I have been up to these last five months and my sincere desire to begin daily posts again. Then there is the other version. This second version is darker. I tell you how nothing has … Continue reading Third Times the Charm?
I have had a set goal for myself to get the blog posted and 250 fiction words written every day. The thing is, I keep pushing them off until to the last minute. Frequently I am writing after the kids are home from school or even right before I go to bed. And, I confess, … Continue reading Plan Ahead
I am gearing up for the chaos that will be the next two weeks. Wish me luck. I will try to keep up with daily posting but I doubt I will be very introspective until after new years. On a different note, the boys had a tough day a school so when they came home … Continue reading Getting Ready For The Holidays
Another day here and gone. I don't know if I accomplished anything. I sort of feel like I backslid a bit today. I have an appointment to see a psychiatrist now. At the end of January. So that is good. It was a process to get in. I am grateful I am well enough to … Continue reading Asking For Help
I did it! Yesterday ended up being a bust, but today (last night) I got eight hours of sleep! And you know what happened next? I got out of bed! Yep, you heard right. I got out of bed, then I made the bed, and then I straightened up the bedroom. None of that could … Continue reading And Then I Woke Up
I feel a bit better today. And yesterday I felt a bit better as well. I took a real close look at those days to see if I could determine any variations that might account for this. The one thing I discovered, I had eight hours of sleep. I never get eight hours of sleep. … Continue reading Sleeping My Way To Health and Happiness
It is Sunday morning as I write this. I have decided that I will have a good day today. I am sick of having bad days. I am sick of feeling down and hurt and confused and helpless. Today will be different. I did all the scary things yesterday. I did all the hard things … Continue reading Not Today