CONFESSIONS OF AN INTROVERT
Today is my second day in bed. I get up for important things, like going to the kid’s swim practice, eating, going for a walk on my treadmill, spending time with my partner and kids, doing the dishes, taking a shower, picking the kids up from school. I am not so bad off that I … Continue reading Safe Space
I am grateful for this bed I am in I am grateful for these blankets I am under I am grateful for the heat that is running through this house keeping me warm I am grateful for the coffee in my cup I am grateful for the silence that surrounds me I am grateful for … Continue reading Gratitude
I went to see Joker again today… Alone… In the middle of the day. And it got me thinking. I really gravitate to movies like this. Movies about the torn apart pieces of a person gathering strength and winning over the well put together pieces of society. Sort of anti-hero movies. And it got me … Continue reading Acceptance
Here is the thing; today I don’t want to write about how I am feeling. I want to write something positive. I want to write about something hopeful. I could tell you about my kids. Yesterday we went to the pool and they both passed the swim test for the first time. They are now … Continue reading Finding Something Good In All This Mess
I didn’t feel any better this morning when I woke up but I got up anyway. I didn’t allow how I felt to have any effect on how I went about my day. That meant that I paused before entering rooms and silently sobbed. I let myself feel the pain, hard and hot in my … Continue reading Silent Tears
It hit me like a kick to the chest. Suddenly it was hard to breath. My vision tunneled. My heart felt like someone was standing on it. I cried for an hour. Now I just feel cold and numb. And the worst part is, I don't want to try and figure it out. I don't … Continue reading Out of Nowhere
Happy Thanksgiving Everyone! I am celebrating this year like I do most years, by staying at home, not seeing anyone, and eating a delicious vegetarian dinner. I have spent years differently. I have done the huge dinners with all the friends and family and drinks and a huge turkey. Having done all of that I … Continue reading A Quiet Thursday
I was able to get up and work out again, early. I have had my nose stuck in a book during any free time. But I still feel a bit twitchy. I am stuck in a strange place. I am not sure if I am moving or standing still. Its like I am on a … Continue reading Perspective
This morning I woke up early and worked out. It is the first time in three days I have felt up to it. I will take that as a big step in the right direction. I also didn't cry at all today, another good sign. Perhaps my time in the pit of despair is nearing … Continue reading And a little bit more
Today was a little bit better than yesterday. Sometimes that is all there is and all I can hope for. I am grateful for it. I hope tomorrow will be a little bit better than today.
Rey Wright 