Happy Birthday To Me

Its my birthday today.

Its been a while since I mustered up the courage to write one of these. This idea has been banging around my head for a while though and I think I finally cracked it open.

I have been plotting all these year-long goals to give myself yet feeling very much not worthy or capable. Then today it dawned on me.

Let go of the future and focus on today.

Screw running a marathon or finishing a book or learning to play the piano. Let that sh** go. It’s too big. I freeze up even now saying the words.

However, there are things I can do that don’t freak me out or paralyze me. Today I can go for a run. Today I can spend quality time with my kids and give them my undivided attention. Today I can wash the dishes and drink a smoothie. Today I can put down the pizza before I feel sick. Today I can get frozen yogurt and have movie night in bed with my boys.

And today I can write this.

I debated about writing this. It sounds like it goes against my whole new outlook. To begin a daily post? That is very much a future plan and goal.

But I make the rules and I miss writing this. I felt good when I wrote a blog everyday. So I am going to do it again. But this time not for anyone but me. No pictures no buzz words no plan to take the world by storm. Just me, speaking to you, being accountable to you, and hopefully connecting to you.

So happy birthday to me. I’ll see you again tomorrow. ❤